Monthly Archives: June 2017

It’s almost time…

So we got past the hotel situation, sort of. We move on the 6th to Durham. I go back to work on the 7th. First time I will be working away from home in years. Sad to be leaving the baby but happy to no longer be living from check to check. Raleigh and I were both hired by the same company. I have never worked with a s/o before, this will be interesting. We’re still looking for a house but it’s cool, it will be easier to look for something with us actually living in NC. I have the weekends off for the next two months, I’ll use the weekends to search. Raleigh doesn’t start until the 21st so he will be looking for a daycare for our youngest. Hoping to find something by the first week of August so we can enroll my youngest daughter in High School.

I just keep moving forward. Excited about the move. Glad to be leaving this situation.

Love and Later Days,

-K

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Tired of this stress…

It’s in my head, my back, my shoulders, my neck. I hate that we’re always in a hopping from one foot to the next situation. The only stress I have these days is money, not enough of it, enough not coming soon enough. I think about how much we make and how much our bills are and we have enough but one little surprise and we’re stuck. Right now I have a car outside I can’t drive because I didn’t get paid soon enough.

We have a house we can move into but have to wait to get paid to pay the deposit, so we pay a hotel (which will eat into the deposit) until we can get our deposit together. Every time we’re out of one financial bind, a new one shows up. When financial problems occur, I find myself thinking of the pizza I ordered because I’m too tired to cook and think how that money could have went toward, blah, blah, blah… then I beat myself up because I spent $30 on something frivolous. I remember how frivolous spending years ago was going out and spending $300 on a night with the girls and I cringe. That was before my parents became ill and I had to take care of both of them Physically and Financially,

I cry sometimes, I pray all the time and just remember “this to shall pass…”. But when, when does this pass. When do I stop stressing, worrying.  When does this pain in my neck, head, back and shoulders go away.  I get some relief sometimes, when all the bills are paid but that only lasts for about a week or two and then more of those fuckers show up. I’ve isolated me and my family because I know there are folks that were smiling in my face and waiting for my downfall. It’s sad so many folks feel that the only way for them to shine is by diminishing or extinguishing your light.  Then there are the folks who will push you over a cliff so they can pull you back, just to declare to anyone listening how they saved you.

I woke up this morning hurting all over because I knew what I needed to do and I know that it is almost impossible to get it done today. That it has to be today or we may lose everything. There’s a tightening in my chest, around my neck, I know it’s all stress because I may not be able to get it done today. I need about $500. That would make a huge difference today. But where do I get it? Lottery Ticket? Go Fund Me? Doing a Survey online? Maybe my Wheel Watcher number will come up on Wheel of fortune tonight. I have a better chance of getting struck by lightening than any of those things happening. Maybe I could slide in the DMs of one of the celebrities I follow on Facebook or Twitter and ask them for it. You see how they’re always helping random fans, so they’ll give it to me right?

I’m sad and tired and stressed and worried and angry as hell…

Love and Later Days,

-K

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Love and Later Days,

-K

 

Looking forward to…

I couldn’t wait to move to Myrtle Beach with my family. I love it here, I do, I just can’t afford to live here anymore. The cost of living down here is low but the jobs I’m qualified for are limited or pay next to nothing. What do you expect when you have an Administrative and IT background and you live in a community that thrives off of seasonal employment. (Most) Apartment complexes around here requires you to earn 3xs the rent. Most jobs around here pays about 2xs your rent.  The ones you qualify for, based on that formula, aren’t in safe neighborhoods.

Now that we’re moving to Raleigh or Durham in the next few weeks, I’m sad to leave the sand but not the situation. I’m tired of never having enough money, paying late fees waiting on the next paycheck to come through. I want to get to the day I get to turn around and relive my struggle and smile. I’m tired of living in the struggle. We have the tshirt eCommerce business up and running but not a single sale. If we could get some sales there that added income would help tremendously. Lord I’m tired, living in a hotel, barely making ends meet. Calling different bill collectors to ask for extensions on everything. I’m just tired. Now the girl that has been giving us an amazing discount on our room has been fired, so I expect the rate to go up. I’m exhausted and would love to rest on the notion that the bills are paid on time and everyone’s ok.

Keep me in your thoughts.

Love and Later Days,

-K